My feeling had been stacking up, not that I could comprehend. I'm so upset that your new school had turned you into a total different person. Where is he that I love? what've you done to him?
There's always him in my heart, who I can never forget about. your sweet gesture, your scent, still linger in my mind.
sorry, I said that I will stay with you forever, but I can't move along with you now.. it's not because of the changes you have that made my love back off, but the changes on your love to me had stopped me from holding your hands.
I promised before that no matter what, even if you don't love me anymore, I'll still be there for you. I'll be keeping the promise forever. even I can't be with you, I'll be there for you when you need someone. Until you can find someone who can replace me.
the feeling for you , has officially gone..
Monday, 31 October 2011
Friday, 7 October 2011
Alright, back in here.
had been camping in front of my study desk recently, working my ass off to revise and prepare for Os. Hope my hard works will be paid off, have all my fingers crossed!
good luck to everyone on earth who are gonna have their exam soon, the stress is either already round at the corner waiting for all of us or already start hitting us. The utmost important stuff for now is moving a step closer to get our dream comes true, which is taking part in the exam. Not the most important, but, can't be ignored.
Recent status in life: family's great, most friends still remain as their lovely sides, relationship sucks. Life, still, can't be so wonderful comprehensively.
talking about the suck ass relationship status I am being pulled in right now. kind of adding tons of stress on me & on my life. Feel not good at all having such unnecessary troubles, complicating things in life.
To the best of my knowledge, I don't have anyone in my mind now, neither will anyone exists in my heart. Sad but glad to say that, time is doing its job for fading memories, be it the bad ones or the indelible ones. The only thing in my mind is, getting into a good school, study the best that I can and move on to the awaiting bright future.
Clearly, I felt myself loving more of my own self than last time. It's a great archivement for me because really hope to give myself the best that I could. Had been giving out a lot, way too much and in turn hurting myself.
My heart is sealed.
had been camping in front of my study desk recently, working my ass off to revise and prepare for Os. Hope my hard works will be paid off, have all my fingers crossed!
good luck to everyone on earth who are gonna have their exam soon, the stress is either already round at the corner waiting for all of us or already start hitting us. The utmost important stuff for now is moving a step closer to get our dream comes true, which is taking part in the exam. Not the most important, but, can't be ignored.
Recent status in life: family's great, most friends still remain as their lovely sides, relationship sucks. Life, still, can't be so wonderful comprehensively.
talking about the suck ass relationship status I am being pulled in right now. kind of adding tons of stress on me & on my life. Feel not good at all having such unnecessary troubles, complicating things in life.
To the best of my knowledge, I don't have anyone in my mind now, neither will anyone exists in my heart. Sad but glad to say that, time is doing its job for fading memories, be it the bad ones or the indelible ones. The only thing in my mind is, getting into a good school, study the best that I can and move on to the awaiting bright future.
Clearly, I felt myself loving more of my own self than last time. It's a great archivement for me because really hope to give myself the best that I could. Had been giving out a lot, way too much and in turn hurting myself.
My heart is sealed.
Monday, 26 September 2011
have not been kicking into my blog since ice age
what else can i comment on my life?
lol it's as usual.
just that i am busier nowadays having to prepare for my O's
The so called study at home,
is to turn the tv, radio on, texting, using phone
and they always come together with an opened book.
it will forever remain at the page that i first flipped open
lack of discipline, motivation, determination bleah
okay can , gonna be back on work and start updating my facebook news feed
every second
ok so no life, but i am bored and my wall is so dead.
flying kisses to my dear dear boy.<3
what else can i comment on my life?
lol it's as usual.
just that i am busier nowadays having to prepare for my O's
The so called study at home,
is to turn the tv, radio on, texting, using phone
and they always come together with an opened book.
it will forever remain at the page that i first flipped open
lack of discipline, motivation, determination bleah
okay can , gonna be back on work and start updating my facebook news feed
every second
ok so no life, but i am bored and my wall is so dead.
flying kisses to my dear dear boy.<3
Friday, 16 September 2011
You are the apple of my eye.
I had just finished reading a book.
that was a book which I want to get very long ago ever since I last watched the trailer of the upcoming movie. so sad that it will not be shown in Singapore (I guess so??@@)
-The Chinese title :
那些年，我们一起追的女孩。
-The English title:
you are the apple of my eye
if this movie is gonna up in sg cinema,
if ever,
I will just drag the boy that I in love madly to watch tgt ^^ because it's great, to share love, especially with your love ones.
okay, back to the story.
I used an open and unexpected heart to read this book, I did not do any research or asking around about how is the story like. so it could somehow leave me a very deep impression of the book in my heart. love this.
It is written by a boy,directed the readers into it with a boy's perspective, so it is different from lady writers,with usual insertion of countless emotional words and habits of making extreme contrasts of atmosphere between joyful and saddiest moments. Though, this, is about unfamiliar romance in school, story of a boy in love with a girl.
But the cherry on top was.
it's so typical,ordinary,at the same time not so flooded with romantica, making me realise that the most simple, the most common things that around, are those that we, will miss, will think back and have a good laugh in our lives are them.
It's romantic, not affected by whatever the characters do, is because of the feeling, the feeling that everyone has in their hearts, because when you are reading along, you will feel the love. Will just feel it, from the author's words, so true that they reaches out to my heart.
True words that come from true feeling beats everything.
indeed, guys' world&thoughts are indeed different from girls'
finally. I got the measure of what's all about in guys' head towards love. aha.
Her smile, left his love stayed,made him dreaming, for 8 years and he had that indelible memory in his heart, keeping for a life time.
if the boy were courageous enough, to hear the answer that she had for him long ago, they wouldn't have to miss out each other in life.
but as what the author had mentioned, this is life, youth that belongs to us. there might be a sad ending, but at least there is an end, an end with wonderful stories before it.
The story does not have a happy ending.
my heart drooped when I came to the almost end
. The side notes in the lines at the last few pages seems to be constantly alerting me.
love does exist. love does
but
it's life, it's life.
He spent his 8 years on her.
but to look at her, walking towards happiness, to another stage of her life.
How did he feel like?
At her wedding, what he did? dramatic end?or reality?
wedding goes on, was only wishing her deep down in his heart. it's not that he doesn't love, he love, he treasured her even more.
so long she's happy.
He said, in his heart, he will never forget about her.
I believe in that.
that was a book which I want to get very long ago ever since I last watched the trailer of the upcoming movie. so sad that it will not be shown in Singapore (I guess so??@@)
-The Chinese title :
那些年，我们一起追的女孩。
-The English title:
you are the apple of my eye
if this movie is gonna up in sg cinema,
if ever,
I will just drag the boy that I in love madly to watch tgt ^^ because it's great, to share love, especially with your love ones.
okay, back to the story.
I used an open and unexpected heart to read this book, I did not do any research or asking around about how is the story like. so it could somehow leave me a very deep impression of the book in my heart. love this.
It is written by a boy,directed the readers into it with a boy's perspective, so it is different from lady writers,with usual insertion of countless emotional words and habits of making extreme contrasts of atmosphere between joyful and saddiest moments. Though, this, is about unfamiliar romance in school, story of a boy in love with a girl.
But the cherry on top was.
it's so typical,ordinary,at the same time not so flooded with romantica, making me realise that the most simple, the most common things that around, are those that we, will miss, will think back and have a good laugh in our lives are them.
It's romantic, not affected by whatever the characters do, is because of the feeling, the feeling that everyone has in their hearts, because when you are reading along, you will feel the love. Will just feel it, from the author's words, so true that they reaches out to my heart.
True words that come from true feeling beats everything.
indeed, guys' world&thoughts are indeed different from girls'
finally. I got the measure of what's all about in guys' head towards love. aha.
Her smile, left his love stayed,made him dreaming, for 8 years and he had that indelible memory in his heart, keeping for a life time.
if the boy were courageous enough, to hear the answer that she had for him long ago, they wouldn't have to miss out each other in life.
but as what the author had mentioned, this is life, youth that belongs to us. there might be a sad ending, but at least there is an end, an end with wonderful stories before it.
The story does not have a happy ending.
my heart drooped when I came to the almost end
. The side notes in the lines at the last few pages seems to be constantly alerting me.
love does exist. love does
but
it's life, it's life.
He spent his 8 years on her.
but to look at her, walking towards happiness, to another stage of her life.
How did he feel like?
At her wedding, what he did? dramatic end?or reality?
wedding goes on, was only wishing her deep down in his heart. it's not that he doesn't love, he love, he treasured her even more.
so long she's happy.
He said, in his heart, he will never forget about her.
I believe in that.
Wednesday, 7 September 2011
Getting back result was such a painful ordeal T.T
this definitely did not apply on those who scored well
looking at my "spectacularly done" papers, I felt like I am the no.1 joker in the world, seriously!
although some of the subjects are quite satisfying, but in my head, I have to keep reminding myself not to be overwhelmed by it/overjoyed towards it as well.
it did somehow fulfilled my dream, to jump two grades for each subject in preliminary exam. hopefully two grades up again in o level!
although most of the subjects are heading towards a C, my science subject is still being stucked at the extreme edge of F.
quite worried over it and I am really gonna buck up!
not now, then when?
gonna start my engine, I am receiving many helps now so there is no reason/excuse that I can just laze off or back off.
-if there's a will, there's a way.-
this definitely did not apply on those who scored well
looking at my "spectacularly done" papers, I felt like I am the no.1 joker in the world, seriously!
although some of the subjects are quite satisfying, but in my head, I have to keep reminding myself not to be overwhelmed by it/overjoyed towards it as well.
it did somehow fulfilled my dream, to jump two grades for each subject in preliminary exam. hopefully two grades up again in o level!
although most of the subjects are heading towards a C, my science subject is still being stucked at the extreme edge of F.
quite worried over it and I am really gonna buck up!
not now, then when?
gonna start my engine, I am receiving many helps now so there is no reason/excuse that I can just laze off or back off.
-if there's a will, there's a way.-
Sunday, 4 September 2011
Haha hello!
yo!!
my life is seriously super epic! those that who knows me well will certainly know about it!
God has really granted me a beautiful and magical life^^
miracle happens.
the previous story continues.
The girl who cried to god, finally understand what He meant by the words He said to her.
she moved on, not forgetting to pray for her dearest boy.
just when she stepped out, turning back looking at where she had came from.
she saw him, a boy whom she never ever take notice of..
He's always there..
&The story begins.
yo!!
my life is seriously super epic! those that who knows me well will certainly know about it!
God has really granted me a beautiful and magical life^^
miracle happens.
the previous story continues.
The girl who cried to god, finally understand what He meant by the words He said to her.
she moved on, not forgetting to pray for her dearest boy.
just when she stepped out, turning back looking at where she had came from.
she saw him, a boy whom she never ever take notice of..
He's always there..
&The story begins.
Saturday, 3 September 2011
Gonna have a lil part of my anger unleashed here.
now, you must be thinking what she did, like so bad right?
ya know, life is like a box of puzzles.
It comprises different kind of ppl, that's what makes up life
there are many kinds of human u will find in life actually
(dont know how to describe it using fabulous vocab.)
Ok that was a polite opening for the angry angry post-_-
Haven't been so mad since decades, honestly, this person really gets on my nerve
So unexpected, just when i thought life runs so smoothly.
YOU FREAKING APPEARED AND KILL THE PEACE.
now, you must be thinking what she did, like so bad right?
ok and i am so glad that she's not in my class, or not i will really freak out upon looking at her face.
She, is a person who loves to so called "seeking" information everywhere
she acted like she doesn't really bothered by it but in fact, SHE DID
it's like - When you tell her about this and that, she will act like"oh, is it? aiya, it's like that one lah." these lines will make you think that she doesn't relaly give a damn, so for my case, i will be like waterfall pouring down whatever i know to her.
and fine, i admit, she got me.
but things go wild when she started telling people around.
LOL COME ON, sometimes even when i did not tell you to keep it to yourself, doesn't mean that you have to spread around like a mad dog right?
and the thing that really boiled me was, she will just say out every single thing that doesn't even concern that. LIKE SERIOUSLY, CO CO BO
i really become slow to angry so i waited till today to rant it all over.
i really become slow to angry so i waited till today to rant it all over.
I can use all the swearings that i know on you but i chose not to because you aren't worth my bank of vulgar.
*fingers up for you*
this is the least i can do.
another thing, things that she told me, i will keep for her, but i don't think it's a need to.
you've talked about the others so much, it's time for you to get the scoldings around
zzz, and stop por-ing ppl around. YOU SUCK.
you freaking disgusted me.
and being kind in front of you had officially came to an end.
You shall deserve some helly faces. and words.
ok i am done, and you are done for i swear.
somebody broke her heart.
She cried & she went up to God.
God asked,'' why are you crying, my dear?"
she replied,''He left me.."
God questioned,"So, do you still love him?"
She nodded, with tears still trembling down her cheeks.
God asked her again, "Then, does he still love you?"
She cried upon thinking of it, the heartbroken answer.
God smiled, while saying ,"My dear child,then he should be the one crying now. Because, what you've lost was just someone who doesn't love you anymore. And what he had lost, was someone that loves him so truly & deeply."
Thursday, 1 September 2011
Wednesday, 31 August 2011
Changed the background image!
although the colour makes my blog look like some emo emo blog!
but nvm! i am just gonna stick with it! at least for s period of time
Look at the cute duck behind! it's actually a duck who dresses like a penguin.
YUP i am the duckie!
who is trying to be like a penguin(hopefully i can become one :P)
Me too, like a duck
who is yearning to grow up asap
haha thinking when will i finally transform into the beautiful swan :)
i think it's still way far from that but it's okay! i can wait !
talking about transforming
here i go, nagging you guys again about how fantastic is the movie
- the little thing called love
i have been advertising it to anyone/everyone about it
it is a Thai movie!
When you hear the words " Thai movie"
your mind will just fly straight to all kinds of horrifying ghost movies right?
haha, it is a movie of romance, love
can say that the love in it isn't as great as you know ...Titanic?
sorry i am too lousy in giving examples..
er.. maybe like Edward scissorshands?
(pardon me i am not so modern)
But it can surely gives you butterflies in your stomach LOL
although the colour makes my blog look like some emo emo blog!
but nvm! i am just gonna stick with it! at least for s period of time
Look at the cute duck behind! it's actually a duck who dresses like a penguin.
YUP i am the duckie!
who is trying to be like a penguin(hopefully i can become one :P)
Me too, like a duck
who is yearning to grow up asap
haha thinking when will i finally transform into the beautiful swan :)
i think it's still way far from that but it's okay! i can wait !
talking about transforming
here i go, nagging you guys again about how fantastic is the movie
- the little thing called love
i have been advertising it to anyone/everyone about it
it is a Thai movie!
When you hear the words " Thai movie"
your mind will just fly straight to all kinds of horrifying ghost movies right?
haha, it is a movie of romance, love
can say that the love in it isn't as great as you know ...Titanic?
sorry i am too lousy in giving examples..
er.. maybe like Edward scissorshands?
(pardon me i am not so modern)
But it can surely gives you butterflies in your stomach LOL
the leading actress is the girl below --
from a normal looking duckling , transformed to this beautiful swan!
--------
(OMG DAMN CHIO!)
Why is she so determined to change? because of this guy ---
attractive *.*
watch this movie and you can get to know more about how the story goes!
it is simple, but good enough to touch all our hearts :)
actually this movie is talking about the first love.
i have not much great impression on it though
but just, love, itself, it reminds me how hard i tried, how much efforts I've put in
for the special someone in life
In the movie, they had waited long enough, and they finally get to meet each other again.
In reality, i would love to go after what the girl did to the guy too.
To wait for him& to change. Until one day, when she's good enough.
Because love, is like a dream.
It's like a dream in life that we are all going after.
Because it's a dream, you will sacrifice everything, give your life up for it.
True love this is.
So everyone, must catch it alright?
it will let you feel so awww.. all over again!
to the boys, look at how the girl had done to the guy
you know get to know how hard, how strong the girl who loves you need to be to love you.
even she can only loves you in her heart.
(bye!)
Tuesday, 30 August 2011
Finally a new blog!
so i can rant over those small little things that happen in life here
FREELY
AWESOME!
Okay, let's begin.
Realise something?
There's always this particular someone among your friends
which love to make you feel like as if tmr's the doomsday/Satan is coming your house to visit you, there are also extreme cases like
hinting you that they are gonna step into hell anytime soon.
& further, consistently exaggerating how miserable they are now by flooding news feed
Bloody hell, can you please be more considerate?
I know we, human do meet times that downcast us much
but excuse me, it seems to me that every single little things on earth stemmed the hatred in you.
From a typical Monday to a relaxing Sunday
you just have no end of all these.
Sigh.
Sometimes i just gotta pray hard that your comp/lappy break down / internet is being so sucked up for you so you have no way to access. :P
Have a suggestion for you
Use twitter instead of facebook,
so you can flood over your timeline as much as you can
since you flooded facebook the same way, don't you?
I am glad that when i meet any ups and downs,
My family, friends and love ones are always there to support me!
Physically & mentally supporting!
I am blessed, Amen!
(Just a random pic to give an official end of this entry ^^)
(bye!)
so i can rant over those small little things that happen in life here
FREELY
AWESOME!
Okay, let's begin.
Realise something?
There's always this particular someone among your friends
which love to make you feel like as if tmr's the doomsday/Satan is coming your house to visit you, there are also extreme cases like
hinting you that they are gonna step into hell anytime soon.
& further, consistently exaggerating how miserable they are now by flooding news feed
Bloody hell, can you please be more considerate?
I know we, human do meet times that downcast us much
but excuse me, it seems to me that every single little things on earth stemmed the hatred in you.
From a typical Monday to a relaxing Sunday
you just have no end of all these.
Sigh.
Sometimes i just gotta pray hard that your comp/lappy break down / internet is being so sucked up for you so you have no way to access. :P
Have a suggestion for you
Use twitter instead of facebook,
so you can flood over your timeline as much as you can
since you flooded facebook the same way, don't you?
I am glad that when i meet any ups and downs,
My family, friends and love ones are always there to support me!
Physically & mentally supporting!
I am blessed, Amen!
(Just a random pic to give an official end of this entry ^^)
(bye!)
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