old notes for you.

I was left speechless when you looked into my eyes, your eyes are the most shiny black gems I've ever seen,they are the stolen jewels from the lost land in the world. They are coated with times, legends, pain, but adorn with love, being polished perfectly. They did not lose their charm after all. When you looked at me, your alluring eyes started to whisper eternal love to me. I couldn't see what's behind them, but I felt what you feel, the complicated feelings that you were experiencing. I am thinking, if you have that tiny little love for me, even with only few, I will be so eager to fight for it. Because I did not see my reflection alone in your eyes, I saw forever too. You might not be loving me, but I fell in love with you hopelessly, just let me stay here and love you quietly. Your eyes are brighter than the stars in the sky. That beautiful evening, when the artificial light shined on your hair and when you was gazing at me, I felt like I am the only person who glorified by love on earth. With your presence, my heart will go on. Love, me. this is for you.

two boats

how can you love two person at the same time when you only have one heart?

how can the person not know that you only love him when you have been waiting for him so long and the first thing you did wasn't to kick his ass after putting you through so much bullshit after all these while?

lastly, how can the friends around know whether what i feel towards everything?

the touch of the cast.

i know how painful that was, so did my heart

the touch of it

i still remember 

i whispered, i tell myself

no matter what will come in my way

i will hold this hand till forever ends.

now that it's gone.

clearly, this scene was shown, directed by the author

as this is what he really wanted to do

if time rewinds

because he knows, he regretted walking away from her

never go back in time

not being at there with her, to wipe away her tears although in his heart, he truly does

Years later, the girl is already married to somebody else

the only thing he can do

is nothing but just placing her at the bottom of his heart

& give them his blessings

He knows, he won't love any girl that much, like what he did to her any more.

things you never knew

You don't know why I had to leave you
your tears shattered every broken piece of my heart,
i chose to be out of your sight.
So sorry I didn't keep hold of you.
there are just things you never knew.


there are just things that i am gonna regret for life.

i know, i will see you somewhere again

I'll make a wish for you 

and hope it will come true

If you lose your way onto happiness

Think back on yesterday 

where i have been waiting

and i'll be right behind your shoulder watching you

I'll be standing by your side

And i won't ever leave

As long as you believe

just hoping that one day you will finally turn around and look at me.

Sometimes in life

what you see may not be the truth 

the truth may not be that coincidentally unveiled before you

trust, is like a sorcery to me now.

i love you so much, el