have not been kicking into my blog since ice age
what else can i comment on my life?
lol it's as usual.
just that i am busier nowadays having to prepare for my O's

The so called study at home,
is to turn the tv, radio on, texting, using phone
and they always come together with an opened book.
it will forever remain at the page that i first flipped open
lack of discipline, motivation, determination bleah
okay can , gonna be back on work and start updating my facebook news feed
every second
ok so no life, but i am bored and my wall is so dead.

flying kisses to my dear dear boy.<3

You are the apple of my eye.

I had just finished reading a book.
that was a book which I want to get very long ago ever since I last watched the trailer of the upcoming movie. so sad that it will not be shown in Singapore (I guess so??@@)

-The Chinese title :
那些年，我们一起追的女孩。

-The English title:
you are the apple of my eye

if this movie is gonna up in sg cinema,
if ever,
I will just drag the boy that I in love madly to watch tgt ^^ because it's great, to share love, especially with your love ones.

okay, back to the story.
I used an open and unexpected heart to read this book, I did not do any research or asking around about how is the story like. so it could somehow leave me a very deep impression of the book in my heart. love this.

It is written by a boy,directed the readers into it with a boy's perspective, so it is different from lady writers,with usual insertion of countless emotional words and habits of making extreme contrasts of atmosphere between joyful and saddiest moments. Though, this, is about unfamiliar romance in school, story of a boy in love with a girl.

But the cherry on top was.
it's so typical,ordinary,at the same time not so flooded with romantica, making me realise that the most simple, the most common things that around, are those that we, will miss, will think back and have a good laugh in our lives are them.

It's romantic, not affected by whatever the characters do, is because of the feeling, the feeling that everyone has in their hearts, because when you are reading along, you will feel the love. Will just feel it, from the author's words, so true that they reaches out to my heart.

True words that come from true feeling beats everything.

indeed, guys' world&thoughts are indeed different from girls'
finally. I got the measure of what's all about in guys' head towards love. aha.

Her smile, left his love stayed,made him dreaming, for 8 years and he had that indelible memory in his heart, keeping for a life time.

if the boy were courageous enough, to hear the answer that she had for him long ago, they wouldn't have to miss out each other in life.
but as what the author had mentioned, this is life, youth that belongs to us. there might be a sad ending, but at least there is an end, an end with wonderful stories before it.

The story does not have a happy ending.
my heart drooped when I came to the almost end
. The side notes in the lines at the last few pages seems to be constantly alerting me.
love does exist. love does
but
it's life, it's life.

He spent his 8 years on her.
but to look at her, walking towards happiness, to another stage of her life.
How did he feel like?
At her wedding, what he did? dramatic end?or reality?
wedding goes on, was only wishing her deep down in his heart. it's not that he doesn't love, he love, he treasured her even more.
so long she's happy.
He said, in his heart, he will never forget about her.

I believe in that.

Getting back result was such a painful ordeal T.T
this definitely did not apply on those who scored well

looking at my "spectacularly done" papers, I felt like I am the no.1 joker in the world, seriously!

although some of the subjects are quite satisfying, but in my head, I have to keep reminding myself not to be overwhelmed by it/overjoyed towards it as well.

it did somehow fulfilled my dream, to jump two grades for each subject in preliminary exam. hopefully two grades up again in o level!

although most of the subjects are heading towards a C, my science subject is still being stucked at the extreme edge of F.
quite worried over it and I am really gonna buck up!

not now, then when?
gonna start my engine, I am receiving many helps now so there is no reason/excuse that I can just laze off or back off.

-if there's a will, there's a way.-

Haha hello!
yo!!
my life is seriously super epic! those that who knows me well will certainly know about it!
God has really granted me a beautiful and magical life^^

miracle happens.
the previous story continues.

The girl who cried to god, finally understand what He meant by the words He said to her.
she moved on, not forgetting to pray for her dearest boy.
just when she stepped out, turning back looking at where she had came from.
she saw him, a boy whom she never ever take notice of..
He's always there..

&The story begins.

Gonna have a lil part of my anger unleashed here.

ya know, life is like a box of puzzles.

It comprises different kind of ppl, that's what makes up life

there are many kinds of human u will find in life actually

(dont know how to describe it using fabulous vocab.)

Ok that was a polite opening for the angry angry post-_-

Haven't been so mad since decades, honestly, this person really gets on my nerve

So unexpected, just when i thought life runs so smoothly.

YOU FREAKING APPEARED AND KILL THE PEACE.

now, you must be thinking what she did, like so bad right?

ok and i am so glad that she's not in my class, or not i will really freak out upon looking at her face.

She, is a person who loves to so called "seeking" information everywhere

she acted like she doesn't really bothered by it but in fact, SHE DID

it's like - When you tell her about this and that, she will act like"oh, is it? aiya, it's like that one lah." these lines will make you think that she doesn't relaly give a damn, so for my case, i will be like waterfall pouring down whatever i know to her.

and fine, i admit, she got me.

but things go wild when she started telling people around.

LOL COME ON, sometimes even when i did not tell you to keep it to yourself, doesn't mean that you have to spread around like a mad dog right?

and the thing that really boiled me was, she will just say out every single thing that doesn't even concern that. LIKE SERIOUSLY, CO CO BO

i really become slow to angry so i waited till today to rant it all over.

I can use all the swearings that i know on you but i chose not to because you aren't worth my bank of vulgar.

*fingers up for you*

this is the least i can do.

another thing, things that she told me, i will keep for her, but i don't think it's a need to.

you've talked about the others so much, it's time for you to get the scoldings around

zzz, and stop por-ing ppl around. YOU SUCK.

you freaking disgusted me.

and being kind in front of you had officially came to an end.

You shall deserve some helly faces. and words.

ok i am done, and you are done for i swear.

somebody broke her heart.

She cried & she went up to God.

God asked,'' why are you crying, my dear?"

she replied,''He left me.."

God questioned,"So, do you still love him?"

She nodded, with tears still trembling down her cheeks.

God asked her again, "Then, does he still love you?"

She cried upon thinking of it, the heartbroken answer.

God smiled, while saying ,"My dear child,then he should be the one crying now. Because, what you've lost was just someone who doesn't love you anymore. And what he had lost, was someone that loves him so truly & deeply."

But I do, do feel that I do, do will miss you much
Miss you much

It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it all have to end

your arms around me
Warm like fire
But when I open my eyes
You're gone